My Weekend

Well I have been super busy with work. I have been trying to find a job closer to home so I can walk...and get some extra cash! I have been super stressed out lately. Found out the night my friend had me drive his car for him since he was to drunk to drive that I now have a speeding ticket. Wont hear for another week or so to find out how much it is! :/ I flipped out and still am just not as much.
I told everyone about our audits and I said that once they were done that I would be shift leader....well they are done and we pasted and yet still have not become shift leader. Makes me wounder what is really going on. We got first place. Everyone scored in the 80's or lower while we got the score of 90.2!!! We were so happy.

life lessons

Well Saturday night I got home from work around 430am but just couldn't sleep...So I stayed up till about 7am...so sadly I had to miss church. But then around 4 I got a call from work asking me if I wanted to go in and help them clean and stuff..I said sure. probably a bad idea since now I have been up ALL night...I don't know what is wrong but I just cant sleep. I may just go out for a run here shortly. But then again I should get some sleep since I am going into work in about 5hrs and doing a 10hr shift!!??!! But I think I cant sleep since I have had some things on my mind as in where am I going in life....at this rate nowhere. I need/want to fix that. I really need to start cracking down on find some online courses for school to get started. Then I need to find a better paying job. I mean yeah I love and hate the job I am at but its not where I want to be at now. When I was a junior in high school I thought I would be half way through collage by now, in a relationship that has lasted more than six months, and very active in my church. But my life right now is the total opposite. I continue working at a place that I kinda like instead of a place where I love going in everyday. Now, yes I may have my own place and all but there is more that I need done now to change my future. Now the whole relationship thing can wait, I want to make sure that I can provide for myself first before I get into anything serious with a guy! People can say whatever they what about this. But I am really wanting to change my out look on life, relationships and school! I also want to get more active again with my church. Religion used to be a big part of my life and right now its just not even there. I have started to go back but it has been hard since people have been judging me. I hate it. Ir bothers me that I also always have to ask for rides. I wish I could have my own car so I can get to where I need to go on my own. Its hard. But I am working on it the best I can. There is more to life as I look at it now. I wish I knew more when I moved out of my parents home when I was just 19, fresh out of collage, didn't have a job then, and didn't know where life was going to take me. I guess you could say that I took the difficult road instead of the easy one. But now that I look back there are so many lessons I have learned within just the year and a half that I have been living out of my parents home. I am truly grateful for them. They helped me through a lot of them. But most of all I am thankful that my moms and my relationship has gotten so much better since I moved out. I just want to let you know that I love you mom, dad, brothers, sisters, and friends you all mean the world to me it just wouldnt be the same with out you guys here!

How life has been

Wow way to long since I was last on here! A lot has gone down since then. I was engaged again but found out he a was using me for money and was having an interesting relationship with my best friend that I count as one of my sister. So once again I broke it off. Since then I have been in one other relationship and it didn't go to well since he told me one night that he cheated on me with one of my best friends so he broke it off. Was hard to get over him but guess it was just not meant to be. So I am now focusing more on myself. Witch has gone quite well. As for school, I am looking at doing some online courses since I don't have a car to get to and from and then I can also keep the same hours at work. Don't know what school to go to quite yet but am looking. With work I am becoming a shift leader!! All my work is finally starting to pay off. Way excited, just waiting for a final exam then I will get the shirt!! With family I FINALLY had some time to go and visit them. It was great. My three youngest siblings got Baptized. It was great to see them. I just started going back to church myself. I felt weird going back. Everyone was nice to me that first Sunday I was back, but I don't know if it will always be like that. Everyone is not supposed to judge but yet I always seem to hear that someone found out about something I did. It sucks. Guess I have to deal with it for now. Hopefully their attitudes change and do forgive me. Everyone needs close friends. Also I moved to my own apartment and found two roommates and loving every minute with them. I am mostly at work but when I am here we all hang out. Also got my self a new laptop since my last one one stolen. I am starting to learn what it means to make a living for yourslef! And boy is it hard or what? Anyway I love you all, who ever reads this that is, but hope you all are well.